Turnpike Thoughts

I accompanied Nick yesterday to Huntingdon, way out near Raystown Lake, to get his furniture from his house since he is moving out. Getting his own place with a couple friends and moving on with things. :) I've only been out that way with him twice, but each time, as soon as the mountains came into view, my lungs started working properly. It felt SO good to be out there and see the beauty of nature instead of all the lights and buildings around here. We drove back separately, since he had to rent a U-Haul to fit all his belongings. On the drive back, I turned the radio off to give myself a chance to think since I haven't had any time to myself whatsoever. Thought about Sunday School, the youth group choir, my plans for the month, my plans for work and school, my plans for continuing or ending relationships. I've made some important realizations. Number one: No matter how much you like someone (friend or otherwise), if that person is pushy and will not give you time to think or get yourself together, it is not worth stressing over. Number two: The people who really care about you will continuously make sure you're happy, know that you're upset without you having to tell them, and worry that they aren't doing enough to help you through. I have a clear picture now, of who I can trust and who I cannot. I have a very definite plan on how things will be handled in the future, and I have a really good idea of who I care about and who I am going to let go. Certain people matter a lot to me, and those people are ones I am not willing to lose. Even if other sacrifices have to be made. The people I enjoy spending time with are very different than my friends from the past, and it does not bother me at all. The people I've met recently are kind, beautiful, and honest people. These people are those you meet and think, "God must really love me." Anyway, driving for four hours on the turnpike in dead silence was great. I've never felt so good about being alone in a car before (especially one that isn't mine), but everything was good, things started clicking and I am on my way to letting things happen that have been waiting to happen. I am on my way to letting people go who are holding me back, and I am ready to open up a little bit to those wanting to be let in. :) Looks like I'm finally catching up with the new year!