Insomnia.

Don't know where to go from here.
I'm at a dead end.
I can't sleep.
I'm not hungry, stop asking me to eat.
No, I don't want to talk, and no, I don't want to do this or that.
Just leave me alone.
I want to curl up into a ball and fall asleep forever.
But this isn't happening because I can't even fall asleep for 30 minutes.
Punch me in the face. Someone. Anyone.
Get me outta here.

Love me.

He said once that I just need someone to be there when I need.
Not that I love or want love.
Just that I need attention and praise.

This is not, and will not ever, be true.
I am not the type of person that changes quickly.
I am pretty constant.
Once my heart is set and mind is made up, I am on that course for good.
So don't tell me what I feel.
Only I know that, and only I can tell you, if I want to.

Things are much better nowadays.
Back to work for both of us.
Back to being busy.
Back to realizing that life sucks when you can't see each other or talk to each other.
Back to living life the way life is supposed to be lived.
We are on the right track.
Let's pray we stay there.

기억을

지워버리고싶어.
만약 그럴수있다면...
어디까지 지워놓을까?

오늘은

정말로 너무 힘들고 아프다.
예전에 내 모습으로 돌아온 느낌이든다...

Ash Wednesday

Another one.
Beginning of another Lent.
Let's think really hard about what's important during this time.
Let's try not to think too much about ourselves
Let's try not to think about only the things that we want/need.
Let's try to be less selfish.
Let's try not to take things for granted.
Let's try not to take PEOPLE for granted.

Let's make this as important as it should be.

답답

왜이러지...
아무것도생각하기싫다.
하루라도아무생각없이
그냥같이있고싶다.
나는...이런걸바라지만
그럴날이없다.

Yikes

So much to do... Don't know where to start.
Don't wanna start anything.
I hate this kinda feeling.
Hope it goes away soon. Gonna try to run it out tonight :)

Dinner for Schmucks

Just watched this. Steve Carrell is... quite an actor.
Didn't really enjoy the movie, but the idea and sentiment was touching.
Just thought I'd jot that thought down somewhere so I knew that I watched the movie and didn't try watching it again later.

On another note, I'm slightly frustrated.
Wishing that there was some way to teach people how to say no.
But I know I can't teach that when I don't even know it myself.

Guy

My best friend is one of the strongest people I know.
When someone that I admire that greatly tells me that I have a part in his being that great, it makes me feel...I don't know how to explain.
I feel like I have a lot more responsibility than I previously felt I did,
but I also feel like I am worth something. :)
This is why he's my best friend. He challenges, and compliments.
I couldn't ask for anything more.

*

답답해.
힘들어.
짜증나.
모든걸 두고 하루만 떠나고싶다.

Spring Spring Spring

It's the first day of March!
Spring is almost here :)
Warm weather, long walks, green trees and grass!!
AAAAHHHH
I can't wait to wake up to the birds outside my window and not the blustery wind whipping against my house.
I can't wait to see spring colors and flowers everywhere I look.
I can't wait to wear pretty spring clothes instead of bulky winter ones!
Woot!!